Let's hear it from the DUCK.

How I feel right now

2011-05-31T20:46:00.003+08:00

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My big chapter.

2010-05-05T02:11:00.004+08:00

I may have to explain this all over again for the sake that I have not been posting anything in this post. A big gap has to fill up.

Mother has passed away after her battle with the cancer. I think she tried but all end up be like the faith decided. I could say I love her so much that I know I gave up my dream. I started to work at my both parents' boutiques and stopped to continue my studies in any art school. That time I hope I could go to a design school. But poor results and all bad luck, plus seeing Mum and Dad had their really bad times for working on this company, I made a decision to work for them. At that time, I knew they were happy and I was naïve, nothing I should be worry about, just work…

I was or am now under their protection. You know this happened because my both elder sister were out home so young. Mum still blamed herself not focusing on her little young daughter despite family still considered poor previously.

A brother I hate him the most. Why? Can’t he work it out nice? Why everything turned out from he were so ugly? He was the most disappointing one. Undesirable. Parent dote him from young. The reason is … the only boy, mummy boy, or daddy boy. All blames goes to my dearly parents, the result of over-doting. The extreme impacts left my dad and I going to face on. Everyone is laughing on you, don't you know?

And all he is going to said ‘I DUN CARE’. Fuck you, young man.

Your unlucky day counts down until you stop self-indulgent.

sWEET/

2009-05-25T01:06:00.002+08:00

My MAN.

WILL

TURN T0... ...

I missed to tell you this.

2009-03-28T03:25:00.042+08:00

Water. UNDERWATER WORLD.

Save the world.

Have you hear of Sentosa Cove?

Nestled within the exclusive Sentosa Cove enclave, ONE°15 Marina Club is part of the emerging hip, upscale luxury neighbourhood that is positioned to become one of the world’s most well-integrated waterfront lifestyle communities. Evoking the glamour and elegance of Monte Carlo, ONE°15 offers world-class marina facilities and is replete with a comprehensive range of luxurious private club amenities catering to both boaters and non-boaters alike.

If you rich enough, you can buy there.

The Oceanfront @ Sentosa Cove

Some are still under construction.

I went to join Heng's Dad birthday celebration with the family at Novan Sq 2.

I think... those happened on 2008.

We drove around Marina and found a new place, 'Marina Barrage'. There have a little waterworld. You can walk through out the waterfalls while you don't feel wet at all. :P

Mr Auntie.

We watched 'The Song of The Sea' at Sentosa. It was most probaby at last year Dec time. Everything was cool over there. Young children from overseas also came to watch this show. Like animation+ sea breezes+ SHAWN = showtime!

WOW!

We went to prawn FISHING. I think it happened last year too. It was my time fishing but I know nothing yet.... yes only waiting.

Delight Daylight.

2009-02-26T02:11:00.001+08:00

When I see rainbow, my mind knows miracles happen.

V Day.

2009-02-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

For you see, each day I love you more
Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow....

Happy Valentines!!

The end of 2008.

2008-12-31T12:25:00.000+08:00

I ended my year with Gary, the singer at Downtown East. The mini countdown, which I been reaching out for so long. Yes, we're trying to smile MORE last night.

Happy new year.

young is me.

2008-12-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

rain lonely

2008-12-25T11:48:00.001+08:00

At Christmas I no more desire a rose,

Than wish a snow in May's new-fangled shows;

But like of each thing that in season grows.

Lonely Christmas.

Happy christmas.

逃。

2008-11-28T12:33:00.005+08:00

爱情的之润？

还是。。。爱情的伤痕？

听说我的一位好朋友和男朋友分手。

我明白她的性情，我明白。

‘是怎么开始了，也许就对你有一种感觉，忽然间发现自己已经深深的爱上了你，真到很简单，爱到绝望也无所谓。

一直以来，我都认为自己很坚强，很勇敢，可是我始终无法理解，当你说出那话时，我竟然可以让泪水，不停的流下来，就像关不掉的水龙头一样，我不知道，为什么短短几个月，我竟可以让自己脆弱到如此地步，是因为太留恋这段感情吗？？

有人说过，错过一个人最可怕的方式是：当你坐在你最爱的人身边，你却知道永远也不能拥有他，昨天，当我看着躺在只离我有一手距离的你，我体会到了这句话的意思，那种无奈，那般无助，也许只有经历过才能明白，生命之痛，也莫过于如此，那晚，我绝望的眼神，失落的表情，支离破碎的心，你是否能感受到，那晚，我冷的失去温度。

明知道你不会喜欢上我，我只是你情感上的寄托，我还是选择去回忆你，我安慰自己，不要为爱情的结束而流泪，可我做不到，眼睛好像不是我自己的。
我一直徘徊，一直犹豫，一直痛苦，就让它继续下去吧。’

天呀，怎么好的女孩你不会珍惜？？

朋友，要再一次去爱懂得爱你的人。

The prom night.

2008-11-19T12:54:00.008+08:00

I got up exctied when someone asked me to do her dressup for her even great prom night she never had before. Shawn's closely cousin, Jia Min. Shawn told me Jia Min just like his own sister, since his Mum babysitting Jia Min only seven years-old. So i got to know Jia Min and Jia Hui from Shawn, it's just like new friends. :))

Beautiful! ! !

Jia Min and Jia Hui.

Hey. Where is my prom night?

I mean my high school prom night?

Do my school made any?

Or I failed to turn up?

I can't remember...

Anymore, it's no more.

Her bigger DAY!

2008-11-06T11:49:00.036+08:00

Sisterly HOOD.

Oop. Don't mention the morning session Ray fetching my sister with his 'Brother'. This is a tragery. I couldn't want to handle my camera with those mess we made, yet we had some fun.

At Ray's house. That's was Hui Hui. I met her first time at my sis's wedding. My sis's pal friend I guess.

Many relatives.

Really cute?

That was Angela. Ray's Secondary friend. She was our make-up artise and tonight host.

Ray's Mummy.

Back to my home! Ahdiyos.

Sexy...

Darren boy.

''I do ... ...''

Act cute??

Yu Xin & Helen. My colleages.

Kosit.

Mummy's old customers. Darling and Baby. (What a name.)

They are my neigbours.

Mrs Koh with her son, and Rose Aunt.

Shu Fen sis and Her mum.

:xxxxx

Joyce. She was very big busy. I think is her day of entertaining.

My hairsdo. I went to salon with Joyce on the afternoon. Many said pretty job. :X

Jay chou?

'You just can't hide, oh dear.'

Hey you'

With mirthful cousies.

Uncle Soon, My Dad's old pal.

Jane and me. Sisterer.

The VIP Table. :( why I'm not at that table? HM.

'Yummmm........................................................................................................................................... Sam!'

My Mum's old friend,Fu Yong aunt and her husband. Mary and Aunt Hong.

Danny, My cousin, with his lovely girlfriend.

Shawn and ME.... <3>

''You're so beautiful... to me.....''

Mummy and Dad. *VERY tired.

Together with their friend's congrat.

'Let's go home, babe.'

Went to attent his wedding dinners.

2008-10-31T11:21:00.002+08:00

This is the first wedding dinners I went along with Shawn. The feelings were all envious, I was quiet the night yet I get to know all his aunts and uncles. All his dad's relatives. Whews~

And the second wedding is a lunch, I get more butterfiles in my stomach. I met Shawn's both Sister and brother first time in this lunch wedding. No lies, I made myself in the wedding and while I took pictures with his family. So happy, And I don't worry anymore. His little cousie, Jia Hui, really friendly, and I happened to stunt with her and talking... day long.

Ps: I know those pictures are small. Try to catch me. :p

A year...

2008-10-04T00:29:00.002+08:00

Ps: I'm lazy to update. Just pics only. :x

WHOS.

2008-09-30T02:37:00.006+08:00

I have been

Telling my every poem

How cute you are.

But now I am shy to tell them

You are inspirations to

Me, my love, and every poem

I have written so far.

I don't want them to think

I am a liar

I am not

It is you

who set my heart on fire.

ME.

2008-09-19T08:19:00.006+08:00

All me.

Burn me. Kill me. Touch me. Hate me. Pick me. Lick me. Feel me. Trace me. Move me. Tickle me. Addict me. Arrest me. Utter me. Baby me.

Gay me.

Love me.

Festive

2008-09-14T01:06:00.000+08:00

No title.

2008-09-09T02:03:00.002+08:00

HOT. :P

Why Wall.E?

2008-08-29T02:04:00.004+08:00

...

hei ol,yy.

2008-08-26T11:43:00.001+08:00

Nono. Hello asking over over..

2008-08-24T02:42:00.002+08:00

I just want to speak to a human being.

Please?

Nope. Not happening. Not today. Instead, the computer-generated voice on the other end of the line kept droning on, spouting off my available options. Its perky disposition didn't make me feel any happier and was, in fact, starting to honk me off.

My DAD asked me to handle paperwork like, terminate electric supply, inform the change of outlet addres, work permits and etc. This is like a job I never thought of. An difficult task that I ever asked Mei Yun have she ever tried to help her dad reading and deal with the government letter. Honestly, I’ve to admit my broken English. But really it’s too hard, I don’t know the words. To figure out, I have to call them and ask one-by-one. Naturally, that's the time when someone (read: me) gets sick.

Simei Eastpoint Mall outlet has been closed for a month and White Sands is opening soon in a week. So I was getting nowhere fast.

"For this option, please press 1 now," the computer chimed in for the hundredth time. "For that option, please press 2 now. To report a lost or stolen option, please press 3 now. To give up all hope of ever reaching the place you want, please press the pound key now."

So which button do I push to speak to someone with a pulse?

As I continued to press buttons and transfer from one computer to another, I started to wonder if it was the flu virus or the computer's constant need to say "please" that made me want to barf. On a whim, I pressed the zero button.

"Transferring to the operator. Please wait."

Ah ha! Now we're getting somewhere. "We're sorry. All of our available operators are currently helping other clients. You're call is important to us and will be answered in the order it was received. Please wait ... forever"

Argh!!!

Eventually, I did manage to get that elusive appointment. However, it got me wondering if this whole exercise in frustration was actually necessary. In today's smaller, , it's sometimes necessary to use automated voice mail to deal with the crush of calls some places get in a given day. However, just because an office has the capability, does it really need to use it?

Some company took a stand on this issue. Responding to complaints from folks, some agencies have set limits on the time customers have to deal with telephone answering systems. In at least one case, the policy stated that making customers deal with an automated recording for more than 30 seconds is considered "not cool."

Today's society is full of wondrous gadgets that are supposed to make our lives easier, improve efficiency and reduce costs. However, spinning your wheels for minutes on end to get an answer to a simple question isn't what some would call efficient.

Here's another thing to consider. It's people, not computers that can fully understand someone's problem and immediately connect them to the right office for help. Computers don't care if you've been in limbo for 30 minutes wanting to speak to someone for help or answers. They only do what they're programmed to do.

There are still roughly many many Singaporeans in today's Singapore deployed all around the world in some of the roughest, most inhospitable places you can imagine. Yet, despite our busy schedules, it just makes sense to turn off that computerized answering system now and then and see what happens.

After all, we just want to speak to a human being.

Please?

Just stay awaay.

2008-08-15T03:40:00.002+08:00

What an upside-down world.
I never know this until I decided to change my heart.
Why it happen in that way?
Or I’m not good enough?
No one is going responsible for any.
I still can’t wonder why.

:( x2

2008-08-05T01:44:00.001+08:00

Stresss.

Road drip.

2008-07-31T10:51:00.002+08:00

My last nightmare never be work out. I have no ideas. Hating me and questioning of nowhere, got my license a year back. And until now I still can’t get my ass out of the busy site! I’m really fucked up.

It is good that Dad expect me to drive on my own, so he could catch better time. He brought 3 front seats car which really prefer to my taste but couldn’t wonder I just can’t cope with itself baby. Like Shawn told me, I’m small, (I think he wanted to say SHORT instead) yet I have a huge car to holding on. Anyway, my younger cousin is all the way out the road after got his car license.

I even managed to pass several semis at once... heart pounding, death grip on the steering wheel... but I didn't brake or slow down. I did have a moment of panic when someone was right on my tail but all I did was tap my brakes GENTLY to let them know that they didn't have to follow so close and kept on driving.
I just couldn’t drive within my own judgment and thinking. It’s green and it going to turn yellow and then, the red light soon.
Should I just have my time turning smoothly right at the junction or should I just stop after I saw the green turned yellow in a few minutes?

I can’t why I hate big cars, big trucks, big Lorries, big buses and whatever vehicles stand up much higher than me. And they were like so near me.
Like squeezing my space out of breath, yes I can’t breathe.

There's no backing out. I think I'll be okay. I really have been trying to use the R.O.A.D. technique and also, telling myself to take a bite out of the elephant. Won't it be nice when we can all drive without a thought as to whether we're going to panic?!

Wow, that sounds like a lot to handle.
‘All the more reason to slow down, breathe, and be sure to do the exercises.’
It's times like this that you have to force yourself to be kind to yourself.

Baby, I’ve tried my best.

Say byebye.

2008-07-29T03:33:00.006+08:00

It's cool, i always thought... I never hate Joyce for just left out.

It's all her one-night decision.

It could be some resasons that Mum kept mention she was unhappy the way updating my newly first guy home.
The psychology is not balanced, while her stress was coming from unpleaseant sales.

She was upset with the life she got.

Who else knows she just don't work for the company.

Figuring am I the one to cause Joyce to make up the point that she was annoyed, but I'm not interested, or asking her come back. The story ended there.

Our company first outlet at Simei Eastpoint Shopping Mall have ended business last night. Joyce did not turn up.

Shawn and Uncle Dick came to help moving things until the last night with us.

I guess Mum and Dad feel sad the acid while putting down the 9 years iron gate.

I can't stop thinking why.

2008-07-16T01:02:00.003+08:00

OMG! Joyce decided to resign today! My dear GOD sister, she was in her off-day today and sent me a few msgs and asking to making leave out the company. And how ridiculous she gave us no reason leaving and so instant resign. Probadly, 'HER OWN REASONS' and I really don't know what is this going on. WTH.
This is a bad news, I guess Mum and Dad have their big time recuiting new workers.
They wouldn't never ever be kind to anyone anymore.

:(:(:(

My off-days plan is gone.

记得人生的志愿

2008-07-13T04:48:00.006+08:00

记得那年我十六岁我定下了人生的志愿
就抛开一切我要从商从此以后我设计到爽

政治太复杂我没有办法英文不够强
我放弃学院　决定学那MANGO 我要我要我要做时下名流

当时年纪小真的哪里怕比棒棒堂冲比超女还壮
一个人背着行囊我要到店去上学堂

好死不死被我弄对有了爸妈生意要我照顾
喔喔接下来会怎样就请你给我个答案

不考大学该学不学时间一堆对对对对妈妈说的对
我不能做不务正业但我相信总有一天做到对

答案不久马上揭晓过了三年我二十一岁
只怕大家真的没发现一直没机会没错

大家真的没发现大家发现一个轮他叫驾车轮
我慢慢沉沦剩我一个人迟钝寻找方向盘

接下来只好去工作做做服务业看能不能东山再起
也许这是我的命我拼了命磨练演技但太多人与人的游戏

小姐小姐走过不要错过
错过就会难过我的话不多不会讨好

假如这样就碍到你我的态度你一定不满意
我只能说对不起敬个礼放个屁臭死你

有时我真的有苦无心我不想再继续做戏
让我做我自己就请你给我个答案

常常觉得莫名其妙身体里总有声音
在咆哮烦躁天气好不好风雨都在飘

批发的人吃方便面方便都不再方便全世界都是顾客队
好像我们不对他们是不是一对反正不对的上了报纸才对

趸卖的人跑去开店面购买的人开始不知踪影
每个人都开始宣布起价新衣开始越来越复杂

本公司自己买货装满顾客的心一变再变
全都怪景气怪政治怪地球天气不对

变少朋友拿个电脑我想要BLOG一些决心接触着
我才了解不是我是谁谁是我是谁不是重点

重点是站在舞台上看着舞台下就这一首歌大家齐唱和
我的心里都有人知道是不是那老天听到

我的运气又怎来到一个有心人他听到谢先生他问我
要不要帮我出人头地就请你给我个答案

过了不久出了感情一首我的心声叫做许静雅
我真的只不过想愿望给你听

后来接着接着突然有人说我是健忘
树大招风不是没道理理由也可以算借口吗

我的天这是什么世界我们什么时候怪自己
知道自己不对对不起大家是我不对

My political matter.

2008-07-08T04:16:00.003+08:00

It really sucks telling all whole me to control my emotion. I don’t why. I just can’t be. I’m so disappointed and depressed. Things were always so happening usually connected Shawn, My bro Jack, and his idiot PC.

Shawn promised himself to help Jack to fix up his desk computer. It seems likely a helpful person doing his job. Yeah, I must be rather glad he would do that. BUT, there is always a BUT. I started to refuse my Jack when he kept doing his dirty business on the net daily. Whatever things he does I really have no interest to know. He has NO job, no school, no playmate, and no goal. And he has a lot of bad habits… such as chatting on the phone until midnight 4. Yes, you’ll ask who he’s talking to so late at night. No ones know and he can’t care to tell.

Back his girlfriend, Mei Ling. She could stand my brother nonsense and followed his stupid ‘Orders’. And yet, play boy can’t stop fling his other girl-friends. My dad told me he went up and scolded Jack when he saw Jack slapped Mei Ling. WTH!

This night, Shawn came to my home because of Jack’s network couldn’t connect. We have dinner together, with my sister, June and Ray. While dining, I mentioned about my back-acne problem get worse after using T-3. I don’t understand why Shawn gets annoyed about this. Why yah?

What’s up? I’m in wrong because of what?

I was confused.

Shawn had fuss up with Jack latter. Jack didn’t keep his promise to work after Shawn helped him to purchase the PC. I kept quiet and BLUR.
And Jack shouted me out of his room. WHAT? Out of his room? That is plain ridiculous. Shawn kept quiet. I just wanna dead in front of him.

I was confessed.

I was varying to help any but I don’t know what. I don’t know anything about route and stupid Adapter. I just went in and out despite Jack disallowed me going into his room. I WAS WONDERING WHY I CAN’T?

I was useless.

Most probably yes.

I cried and tried to call any of friends while I was so depressed.
What an upset I couldn’t find any of them! So late I guess they have slept. Ahhhhh!

I was hopeless.

Shawn determined to finish and solve everything. It was late at 1.30 a.m.
Everyone was silent and I know I was indifferent.
Shawn went home, and asked him to msg me while he was backing home.

He was disappointed with me. Well, He means regret knowing me. He can’t accept my behaviors just now. I might don’t understand him or likewise he doesn’t understand me. OMG.

After all,

I was the big-loser.

I have no confidence.
I have no goal.
I have less knowledge.
I have sibling rivalry.
I have lost love…

Oh gosh, Jess Jess you're in the mess. fU.

All fine. Now is 4 am and so I can't sleep... and the telephone is still on, someone is using the phone.

My S'pore Flying Flyer day

2008-06-29T00:41:00.014+08:00

Yakult Rainforest Discovery.

Benjamin Sheares Bridge.

Marina Bay Floating Platform.

The highest point. Okay, I'm so excited!!!
Republic Plaza.

Going downwards. Can you feel it?

Marina Bay Golf CourseHousing.

The group of US.

Getting down the capsule...

Oop. Actually not camera allow. But I just caught a shot before I been caught. :p

'Butterfiles in my stomach.'

2008-06-22T04:01:00.005+08:00

It's really cool Shawn's aunt asked him to put me along to his cousin's wedding dinner. I did really glad they wanted' to see me. But I don't really know why I kept worried myself from seeing his relatives although I'm not up to ugly. 'What should I wear for dinner?' Okay, it have been a few years back I have attented the last wedding dinner, if I could remember it was at Orchard. 'What should I do if I meet up all his aunties and uncles?' From his information, he have 11 sisters and brothers in this Dad's family tree. Okay, I owned that. I think I should be quiet and look around stare. This is me. Ha-ha.

From the start of the day, it was lousy. I mean I went to work for half-day and I almost got screw up by my customers. Unless I stop thinking I'm seeing his important relatives, thing may be better. But somewhere there is a time I still have to met them. My confidence kills me firstly.

Shawn picked me up from my workplace with a bit of delay because his sister, Cindy trimmed her fringe. I used to be like this before in my high school.

Together with his dad, we reached there almost late but I can't bother so much. I'm SHY!

Step into the elegant ambience of a bygone era and engage in an affair that will lead us to the most momentous occasion of life, just the way I imagine it to be.

There were lot of people, half of them are Shawn's relatives. We shared the same table with Shawn's one of the eldest uncle and family. And I sat next to Shawn and Cindy. Probably I glad the right time chat with Cindy, knowing her and the families of all. She was really friendly and never know she might go to the another table in the mid of dining , chatting with aunties and uncles.

Not of all, actually vary a way the aunties were big delighted and warmhearted to me. Like very close, which I don't know why. Shawn introduced me to them table to table. I hope I can remember SOME of them.
You know I take time.

At least, I don't fart around and I know them more because I wanted to...
Right, Shawn?

Sis's birthday treat!

2008-06-20T12:05:00.002+08:00

Glad that Jane invited us to celebrate her birthday over the Raffles Hotel Fairmont, the Singapore's tallest building 72 level. But I doubt Dad is having problem with his going-soon expiry Raffles Hotel VIP membership and $500 vouchers. What a waste! Anyway, Dad have that VIP due to Jane's company. They do that kinda of marketing discounts and promotions for the entire hotel. You know the hotel make alot of effort making membercard since people really think thing goes so expensive down there.

But most important, my sister was really have her way to find the kinda of 'Lobang' whereas we go those free buffets with the vouchers. Yeah, this is my first time going for the hotel buffet, Plaza Market Café, and I also ate all the foods and ice-cream, and I don't wish to stand after dining.

Jane booked a room for free, with the VOUCHERS again.

Mum and I.

Mum and DAD. :)

Jane got the keys!

Opps. She's my niece, Jane's daugther, Cleo. Is't she pretty?

The deepest meeting.

2008-06-07T03:35:00.004+08:00

I’ve dated for the past few months. It’s past getting to know one another, first kisses, etc. and sort of want to take it to the next level. I kept figure out when the right time is to introduce my mate to the folks. Frankly, first and foremost ask myself am I serious about this person or is this just a fling. I don't want to overload my parents with my flings because ‘bad things’ could happen.

The decision to introduce boyfriend to own parents is a big step. It means relationship is teetering toward commitment, and it's time to see if my special guy is going to get along with my family. First impressions are more than often the imprinted impressions in people's brains.

I have talking to family and defined my relationship. To me, that is if I've never established whether me two are together or just sleeping together, it could get mighty awkward when my parents refer to him as a boyfriend. So prepared to explain, and make sure it's not a surprise to parents, Shawn or me. I do set some rules tell Shawn how to act. Let him know whether to address my parents by their first names or aunty and uncle.

Announce ourselves. My parents will probably want to tidy up the house and be a little prepared before I show up with the new love of your life.

Make things comfortable. Act as a friendly liaison between my possibly petrified boyfriend and my wary parents. Share family stories, introduce people, spark up conversation, tell my parents stories about me and boyfriend, and let him chime in. But … No politics. No religion. No sex.

It’s really different I met Shawn’s family, relatives and his friends. I met mostly all of ‘them’ out today freely.

Pick easy topics of conversation with his young cousins.
Catch out movie with his close friends and their girlfriends. (It’s weird at the 1st time.)

Of course, I settled some rules to myself too and learned from Shawn about his backgrounds and characters in his life.

Just remember the first time I went to Shawn’s house at night have been chased out of house once his Mum was alone. His Mum probably got sort of ~~mental~~ depression illness, likewise she hardly bring herself towards neither the crowed, nor stranger like me…. And she don’t like visitor at night! Dress cord is avoided black. Okay, I was getting out. His Dad told me not to bother too much though. A little of frightened but I know Aunty is more frightened more than I want to know her.

Most of all, I’m out to show these people that I am the kind of person who will respect and care about their little prince. Prove that their baby is in safe hands and I’m halfway there.

whiteblack

2008-06-06T03:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i do love photo shots. XOXO.

This is a NO.

2008-05-28T02:26:00.010+08:00

You know what. Finally everyone in the house know I got a boyfriend. And we have been dating for 8-9 months. Luckly that Shawn and I are staying strong on this 'relationship', perhaps I don't like to use that word. Wondering how much underground affair lay apart and holding until now. Don't ask me how but I know we let everything go so natually. :)

I brought him to my house fortnight. Remember everyone was so quiet at first sight, that no idea what would happen next. It's fine but just doubt Jack make the right time, wanted him to help on purchasing new computer or its devices. Both of them get along brotherhood. Recently, I'm really freak out the way that Jack asking too much from Shawn hunting the right devices to buy. Everyone have to work expect him. The bad thing is that Jack just couldn't want to listen any of us, I swear. Shawn promised he got to turn my brother to a better person, find a stable job or going back to studies..

Should he take a try to handle my brother?

Or not something might concern to affect our 'relationship'?

like I being bad now.

Day soul

2008-05-24T02:09:00.003+08:00

Called friends out but once simply no one can make it.
Yet ended Kalyne met me up today for shopping.
Big time sale in Singapore now!

你问在我心中　是否还苦恼

我其实不明白
可能　不算困扰...

What a ride.

2008-05-18T03:30:00.014+08:00

There are some reasons why I didn't really know what to plan for a couple to do. Latest Movie? Only lunch? Shopping Mall? Nah, I didn't want that else. Neither him. I probably shy talking about it there.

Having my lunch in Subway.

My Main aims to Sentosa.

Sentosa 4D Magix. For a mind-blowing interactive experience,this state-of-the-art theatre offers us a whole new generation of movie magic.Through the synchronisation of a full spectrum of visual effects, surround sound, individually-controlled motion seats and special "live" environmental effects such as water spray, all my senses will be fully engaged like never before! And now showing is the 'Pirates'.

CineBlast. Feel the exhilaration of flying to the top of the highest mountain, the stomach-churning thrill of rushing into the deepest valleys, and the gripping excitement of being tossed about by whitewater rapids. These Super-Trees that are grown in a 'Super World' will rush down ravines and gush through deep caves, crocodiles and danger awaits us at every turn!

Couldn't wonder the both theatres really short few mins. I thought we were going to spend a few HOURS there.. But since we were there, lets walk and feel the beauty nature in Sentosa.

The Merlion.

At the back of The Merlion is a 120-metre-long Gaudi-inspired mosaic walkway – Merlion Walk.

You know what. I just really a little bit kinda of hate taking my picture even thought I took picture of 'others'.

The Sentosa Express is a light rail system that will conveniently link HarbourFront, VivoCity and St. James Powerhouse to Sentosa. Expect to be transported in quick comfort to the resort island in less than four minutes from the Sentosa Station at VivoCity. Whereas, I always differ it with the Changi Airpot Skytrain.

Beach Station: Alight here to Palawan and Siloso Beach, pubs, restaurants, food court and many other food and retail outlets

Sky Tower.

Waiting to be seated inside the cabin.

Sky Tower located adjacent to the Sentosa cable car station.

Inside enclosed, air-conditioned cabin, I then started to play his camera.

The views from the tower promise to be both scenic and breathtaking.

Sky Tower is a key point of interest and forms a distinctive landmark as it soars above the surrounding natural greenery.

PS: This is the mini video which I have taken it from the top right up from the Sky Tower. You could kindly close my media player and play the video for gazing at the splendid views.

Oh my god... when the endings, I still saw myself! HMM.

I thought he told me there is no me in the video?

Sister's wedding planning

2008-05-13T11:15:00.000+08:00

Sister is really fond of places in Sentosa. So that's an idea she would like her wedding to hold there. Her future hubby so likely have the same thinking.

Choice 1: Amara Sanctuary Resort Sentosa

The resort’s 121 beautifully designed guest rooms.

There are mini spas. In the hotel. We can stay if we booked there!

Their suites and villas provide the ultimate in comfort, luxury living and state of the art facilities.

Mum asked me for a few shoots. I just only agreed after her few requests.

Going back to the hall.

The bar area.

Choice 2: Costa Sands Resort

The resort include a BIG swimming pool

And there they come again....

Walking and walking... the whole afternoon.

Costa Sands Resort (Sentosa) has air-conditioned chalets together with the existing 15 Kampung (Malay for 'village') huts that accommodate 4 guests.

Overall: I still think Amara Sanctuary Resort Sentosa is better. Its unique character derives from an exotic blend of colonial architecture and modern design concepts, as well as comprehensive five star hotel facilities that come together to shape an ideal resort experience. It is all their own decide, their idea wedding planning.

News.

2008-05-12T03:32:00.002+08:00

Tens of thousands dead or missing in China quake
China's biggest earthquake for a generation left tens of thousands dead, missing or buried under the rubble of broken communities. Troops and rescue teams struggled by air, land and water to reach areas of southwestern China hardest hit by Monday's massive 7.9-magnitude quake which demolished schools, homes and factories.

My sister is getting married again.
Yes, at the night of Mother's day, June and her boyfriend Ray, announced the good news. It is a flip side to the pastime happened when June getting divorced with Ricky. We were glad to know. And so that Joyce too over-joyed thinking what she have to prepared herself for the wedding... even that it's not hers.

The care you've given have enriched my life

2008-05-09T12:54:00.003+08:00

Mere happiness is not the song I'm singing:

Of mothers' joy a jagged piece is pain.

To love is to be amply burdened, bringing

Hearts with gifts to an uncharted plain.

Even so, one longs to be a mother,

Remembering a richness unreserved

'Ere one could barely recognize another,

Sustained by love unsought and undeserved.

Deeper than oneself is one's communion,

A revelation reached alone by union

Yet yearned for, though through years of love well served

Mum, i love you always-*

The price of beauty, does expensive necessarily mean better?

2008-05-08T13:27:00.010+08:00

My sister, June, an ardent fan of Louis Vuitton, has sworn by the French luxury fashion and leather goods brand and company’s entire range for a good 150 years. It primarily competes with Versace, Gucci, Chanel, Prada and similar luxury fashion brands. She been used to buy ‘branded’ since she was young went out work. She is the sort who spends thousands on exotic skin bags.

I still remember tagging along to purchase her the latest fashion bag. She’d stay at the retail for a good hour, asking questions about the latest bags.
I balked at the prices, and frankly, so did she, but June always loyally shelled out for the expensive potions and made sure she used them right.
Same as beauty brand, she loves to use Clinelle and SK-II creams. She wants young skin too.

Expensive makeup also differs. I’ve found the price liner actually saves me money, because fewer touch-ups are needed. Yet June used the Chanel $90++ liquid liner. She still claimed the brand she chose this the best. Best? She just brought it a few days ago. I told her, ‘It’s diligence in taking care of your skin and not miracle creams that work.’

So what’s my point? While expensive cosmetics do offer more benefits, you’re not guaranteed a miracle. Don’t blindly buy into hype or a pretty box. Rather do some research, ask for samples and try them out for a few days.

MUST READ. on the net….
I shared a World Horrific crime and researched from the net.
How is it possible that no one knew anything for 24 years?” I wondered.
Austrian docs keep ‘horror house’ victims from public.
Josef Fritzl, had confessed to holding his daughter captive for 24 years in a cellar in their apartment, sexually abusing her, fathering her 7 children and tossing into a furnace the body of one child who died in infancy.

The monster father! This man must have been insane and must have felt he was far superior to others. &^$#*!@$%0x&8

OS: Yeah, Dad and Mum will be backing home tomorrow afternoon. And my neighbour, Louis, their family has moved away..

L.o.L

2008-04-29T11:59:00.002+08:00

Click on the pictures for better view.

Extracted from Sin Yee.

Off the case.

2008-04-21T10:35:00.003+08:00

God. Browsing the net with a few clicks, my brother Jack came across my site; and just knew I have a guy outside. He jolted. Never ever wonder he promised me not to tell anyone at home yet. Yeah I doubt. He would want anything as an excuse. At the living room, on the dinning table, in dad’s office, he would like to tease me. Perhaps he might threaten me incase anything happen. My luck oh mans.

It sounded good when Dad and Mum are going away from home again and so lesser nonsense my silly brother making on me. Joyce will be stay with two of us in the house until ours parent were back home. Of course, Dad prepared our requirement, such as can foods, door keys, daily timetable for the maid, a little bit of cash and etc. He freaking reminded me, PLS DON’T FORGET this and that. Nor can a man, independently . . . of God's blessing, care and cark myself one penny richer.

Got my little bit concern how should I talk to my parent about Shawn. They rather have not idea I’m seeing someone outside. Guess a right timing talking about it will make vary different. At least, I know he is comfortable in stable relationship we’ve been like now than he used to argue me even though.

Poor thing that he could fetch me after work at nowhere the bus stop and drop me just near-by few units away from my house. It would be frightening if Dad just happen to walk out of the house. Yeas, I'm reading his mind hopping this to happen someday…

So, what is love?

OS: Happy birthday to Dad and Shawn.

Sweetie like US.

2008-04-18T02:25:00.003+08:00

I backed my promise not to contact Mary until she makes the first move, but failed. I called her and fortunately we ended a nice talking late night. Like favorite fresh homemade goodness, Mary spend her entire holiday at home do make those cookies and cupcakes even thought she had made some sweet bakery brownies for my birthday present. ;) Best buddies!

One of the days, I went down to look for her in the morning as if we were going for our early breakfast. Beat time and time, she invited me to her place since the sky getting darker. Yes, I was looking for a shelter…
Familiar faces, Mary’s Mum at home too. And her sleeping brother eventually was going back to the army camp.
Mary kept herself a book of recipes of cookies and sweet course. By browsing on the net and exchanging recipes with schoolmates, Mary kept certain of her ‘secret recipes’ so the book is up! Perhaps, she got plenty of time, at home.

As a promise, Mary let me join in the bakery. ‘Thin Mints’, which are any of several varieties of cookies sold by Girl Scouts of the USA (GSUSA) as a fundraiser for their local scout units. It is Girl Scout cookie season. Every SINGLE year my schoolmates in Girl Scout make their sales ordering for cookies. I can't help myself, who can? A box only sets you back a few bucks, and for that you get to relive the flavors of your youth.

It was the initial making indeed. Therefore, I didn’t really help too much. We made the cookie dough. Place the dough in the freezer for 20 minutes to chill but Mary would freezer a day after and then, rollout and bake, and make the peppermint coating to the finishing the cookies. So I didn’t see much.

She sent me pictures of these cookies which I think it looks delicious. Yet the tastes have to be improve, she wrote an email to me.

Really faking do its job.

2008-04-11T10:40:00.007+08:00

Like what I always say, 'Try it, and you'll love it.'. My previous opinion to people wearing FAKE lashes onto their eyes, they have overlook themselves, and wise to be, they have to dramatic. After the surgery, I got myself to use them, instant with my daily massacre and eye liner. Indeed I’m trying not to rub against my eye since them have not totally recovered. It took months. But now I try I may like to use fake ones until I’m bored with. At least, it saves more time than putting massacre and so I'm lazy.

During the period, I was resting at home, when i "lay low" for about 6 days. I do draft practices put lashes onto the eyes. I deadly don't really know how to works to put that to small effective things onto my eyes, that even doing some researching on the net.

So many of kind FABULOUS EYE LASHES! Hardly fuss thought; I always use the NYX, the band. I guess I really love the texture and even the cool definition.

I have been looking for EL 113 over the all SASA stores in Singapore BUT they are still out of stock!

If you want to see many Fabulous varieties for superior extention and definition to create those big and sexy eyes, click over there.

Definitely, Maybe
It's so complicated.

Not cool at all.

2008-04-08T02:16:00.010+08:00

Two of my pals came down to look for me dinner, a few days ago. Guess they freaking bored sitting with me, while waiting FOR FOOD. Yes, we still ended up playing like a kids. Shooting. Phews phew...

Wow, I saw Joyce wearing net stocking today before she got to work. I brought them a few days back at Isetan since Joyce couldn't find any at her place. It's really really sexy back. Can't actually stop my eyes come-hither look on it.

Don't bother to ask me to wear those stocking at all, because the net will surely look extreme big originally. I have fat legs, so not fish for it.

Nothing much happen the following weeks. Yet the sales are slow, and I met up unlucky myself .

Go to bugis temple with Helen the next day.
GOD BLESS ME.

Moods diary.

2008-04-04T08:43:00.002+08:00

Read me through my moods.

Work.
The family.

Love.
Myself.

Surfing Net News.

1st time in history, a married who used to be a woman, is pregnant with a baby girl...

Read the bare news.

OS: Will men have pregnantness in the next future? Come on, just give women a break!

It's him.

2008-03-28T03:28:00.003+08:00

BLEAH~

Been a minute and we still holding it down

Butterflies every time you come around

You make me, so crazy

And I don't ever wanna be with no one else

You're the only one that ever made me melt

You're special, boy it's your, your style

We so in love.

tis me.

2008-03-16T02:38:00.005+08:00

After several days recovery, I had gone back to work. I made myself so new, that I have changed my appearance. But it’s not too much, just only cosmetic eyelid surgery. Due to the doctor told sis and I, don’t intrude the eye place, so I decided to use fake eye lasher instead of mascara, easy for make-up remove. This is lousy task until kept me this few days doing practices how to place the fake eye lasher onto my eye lids probably using glue, without hurting any of the eyes. Unbelievable the fake eye lasher make my eyes look bigger and brighter. Okay, you should know I’m so happy now.

Helen told me she actually can’t use to my eyes currently, especially the 1st day I went back to work.

‘Do you have other surgeries?’
‘Of course not. Just only have my eyes job… and nothing!’
‘You look…. Different. I mean your face then.’

I guess the eyes changes and so the face proportion a bit of turning different. But I think it’s not obvious. Yet I’m not sure, you could judge until the day you see me…

People kept asking me whether the surgery deadly painful. I don’t felt anything since I had be given an injection. But just only expect the very end of the surgery, I could feel my left eyes was pressed down hard pressure by the doctor and saw he saw my eye using thread and needle! Somehow, like I used to do to my customers’ alteration pants.

Pain after surgery is usually mild. To prevent swelling, apply clean (not sterile) cold compresses to the eyelids as much as possible until I go to sleep. Swelling is usually at its maximum on the morning after surgery; bruising may increase slightly for several more days. Look the worst on the third day, after which improvement begins slowly. Most bruising and swelling are gone by two to three weeks, although a small amount of swelling (20%) will remain behind for a much longer period. Stitches are removed 4 or 5 days after surgery. Warm compresses should be used at least once a day (and more if wish to) for three or four more days. Most bruising is gone by a week, while noticeable swelling will persist for several weeks. I'll be back to the doctor to review after 1 month.

If you like to know more about the surgery, just click here.

Art of Boredom

2008-03-10T18:39:00.000+08:00

Staying in my room, I lived with boredom a few days back. Despite of obtaining back my eyes from its surgery I've mentioned early, no ones will save me just from the sky. Of course, I'm not going out to wherelse until my buises just getting off my face. People might thought I just have a fight and happened badly to my eyes. It's so hateful while Mary came to my house and gave me presents, but anyway still thanks to her. She made wonderful cupcakes. But I don't care, apparently I waited for the recovery. So well, I was just walking around the house where I could get myself, looking out for tasks I could help so.

Tasks done:

Draw out the various kind of jackets. In the scapbook.

Play my pipa. Clean its cover too.

'Spring clean' my room. Mess it and arrange everythings back.

Play Jackass PSP. Finish all 7 episodes.

Surf the net and check all e-mails.

I received a email from Xueqi. ' Try it Quite true.'

ps: I only have 8 close friends?!

My facebook interview.

2008-03-05T16:40:00.006+08:00

Interview

How tall are you?
160 Let's make to the nearest.

Do you like bananas?
Of course yes! but dun think likewise.

What do you do on fridays?
Working as usual. Sign.

Favorite body part?
My ass.

Vitamin Water or Gatorade?
Water will do.

Have you had a beer in the last week?
No, not at all.

If you could have one super human power what would you choose?
Fly? Like superman,ha.

What is your favorite place?
My room.

Do you read harry potter books?
Nah, not ever one.

What would you do if Michael Jackson asked you out
Go sexy.

Where do you want to travel next?
London.

Boat or bus?
Bus.

Walking past a beggar, spare change or ignore?
Ignore, because i have spent too much.

Do you shower every single day?
Yeah!

Kill the spider or let it out?
Omg. I hate spider but don't even dare to get closer them.

What is your favorite TV show?
Project Runway.

Do you eat cold cereal at night?
No. cold night you know.

Define yourself in 3 words...
cheeky, outgoing, wedie.

Would you rather be blind or deaf?
deaf. Beacause I want to see.

Are you a cat or a dog person?
None all.

Which is worse? A bad laugh or a bad cough?
A bad laugh. At least I know I can recovered from bad cough.

Favorite fruit?
Apple.

Juice and crackers or milk and cookies?
Milk and cookies. Just like OREL.

Who are you going to vote for in 2008?
Myself.

Firefox, Internet Explorer, Netscape, or other?
Internet Explorer will do.

What was your last thought?
Hey, you know i just wondering about you?

Why did the chicken cross the road?
Guess they had lose their way to the roadside.

Your favorite Disney Films?
Tom & Jerry.

If you had to pick one car, which would it be?
Hmm. Family car?

Most embarrassing moment?
When I fall down at the crowded shopping mall with my big heels.

Most Memorable Past?
My secondary school times.

Opera, Musical, Concert, Play, Performance, or Other?
Performance.

Favorite Place to Eat?
Hans.

Would you rather lose an arm or a leg?
Lose an arm. So i don't really need to do handwork.

Would you rather be hot or cold?
Hot.

Water or 100% Juice?
Water. It's pure.

What size shoe do you wear?
37.

Do you have any tattoos, and if so what and where?
Nah.

Where do you see yourself in five years?
Somewhere at overseas.

What 3 words would your best friend use to describe you?
You asked her.

What is the name of your truest friend???
Mary, mei yun.

Are you an outdoor or an indoor person
Indoor person.

Do you believe that the cup is half empty or half full?
Half full.

If you could time travel to the past to correct any mistakes you feel youve made would you?
Definately. Please tell me how.

If you won the lottery, how would you spend your millions?
Shopping first.

What makes you laugh?
Your lame ones.

What makes you cry?
You are so bad.

What is your favourite word?
WTH.

If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
San Francisco. The beautiful place I think i've ever thought of.

If you could be successful at any job in the world, what would that job be?
A famous fashion band maker.

Whats the First Thing You Notice In A Boy/Girl?
The way they dressed.
If you had only six months to live, what would you do first?
Go to him.

Are you in love?
:) Yes, im.

Do you hold hands when you walk in public?
I'm shy but at least I do.

Do you say "I love you" in the relationship?
Many times.

Close your eyes for a moment, who pops into your head?
Hmm. Him.

Romance or Kinky Sex?
Both.

When do you plan on getting married?
Around 26?

How many kids (or any at all) would you want to have?
Maybe 2 to 3.

Relationships or hook ups?
Hook ups

Sour or sweet candy?
Sweet

Chocolate or other candy?
Chocolate!

How many hobbies do you have
Only two.

What is your favorite color?
Orange.

Desktop or Laptop?
Laptop. My baby.

How many people are in your family?
7 people, including me and my god sister, Joyce.

Do you sometimes wish you were a porn star?
Of course, yea. DO I HAVE THE CHANCE?

Why are you taking this interview?
You better know me well.

Beautiful Eyes.

2008-03-03T20:40:00.005+08:00

Pain Pain Pain. Very Pain. Appointment is made on today. Preparing myself to the surgery, I have butterflies in my stomach. Anyone will feel nervous for any surgeries. Just put on the sunglasses, I look myself is special today. Finally fulfill my wish, having double eye lids in my self-hearted. Couldn’t guess my sister got more worries than me, she couldn’t sleep well past few nights. She kept confusing questions about the minor surgery. Hahas.

My sister went firstly. Probably she couldn’t take it after seeing me if I’m the front to go. Waiting together outside the room, Mum and I sat at side the corridor door. I brought my PSP along to reduce my nervousness. Joyce brought me a memory card with the a few installed games in my PSP, simply I’m more concentrated to the games. While then, the door was not closed; I could hear June was chatting with the doctor during the surgery.

June was out to the rest. Okay, I stunned. She looked awful when two tapes on each eyes. The nurse called my name, got me prepare for the next round.

‘ Okay, doctor, doctor, I want a big eyes.’
‘Hahah, alright, you will have them so soon. Lie down.’

The light just too bight, I could just managed to look open half of my eyes.

‘Close your eye, close your eye. There we go.’

A cold compresser.

Shawn encountered this operation. Guess he just wanna share this with you.

29/2/2008, date of my operation, Tonsillectomy.

Days before the op, I was calm and I kept cool. At 6am, that very day, I reached the hospital. My nerves tuned up. My anxiety raises and I got impatient. I registered and I waited. Zzz, less than I expected, I was called upon when the clock struck 2pm. Wore in surgery wear, and there I entered the op theatre. I eased myself as I chatted with the nurses around. I was comforted by their words. Thump, thump, strong rays of light shore across my eyes, I was told to inhale “oxygen” from the mask. Once, twice and finally, * A Total Darkness!

I woke up with blurring vision, felt soared and shiver tremendously. Bothered, it was just post-syndromes of anesthetic effect. “Common!” But I swore that it’s the worst experience I came across. At 5pm, I was trolley back to my ward where I’m expecting my family. Yea, I spoke a bit and they accompanied me. Then shortly, I was left alone to spend the night myself after the visiting hours are over. I tried to sleep through the night and hope to wake up fast in the morning. Failed, I endured sufferings worse than death. First, I couldn’t sleep, thanks to the pain on my throat. I cough blood and flames frequently. Horrible! I thought. It was mind-torturing; I cried out, I didn’t expect it. *sob.

Finally, morning came, the effects subdue, thank god I'm relieved. If I had thought twice... hmm… Pardon me, to people around, don’t neglect health!

Believe me, you wouldn’t wanna step in to my *poo. Peace!

And I noticed something. He missed out me. Arhg.

其实我并不懂

2008-03-01T03:31:00.001+08:00

这几天家人对我怪怪的，不知道为什么.
爸爸对我不理不睬，好像我做错了什么. 妈妈说我有某某一天，爸爸讲我时，以为我talk back 骂他f-word.但我没有. What a miss. 还有，他觉得我在这个月一直花很多, 其实我都用在手术上，他都知道cost到哪里去呀. 搞什么哦...

妈妈和我发脾气. 原因是她在shopping mall 买给我的衣服，我都嫌不喜欢，她讨厌我了呀!... 还老是说要take care 她，不可以让她生气... 我真是的！

弟弟... 就不说了... 老是在家里无所事事. 只会一激动，就乱发脾气...

脸上的快乐，别人看得到。心里的痛又有谁能感觉到.

我突然之间，好想好想他哦...
不知道他人在医院小手术，好不好？

My birthday present.

2008-02-28T02:55:00.005+08:00

Early aware Zhengyi contacted me a couple of days before while appearently I was quite busy in the shop. We decided to meet out today and she came to look for me. I was happy indeed, have no intention she got a plan behind me. Yet I just brought the way where her plan get to happen. She get a well done job. I have no idea.

She just walked towards an table in Swensens.

Oh alright, I have been fall out to the plan. Sin Yee and Valerie were there for my birthday. Haha, my surprise indeed.

The ice-cream cake. I have been forced to eat 1/3 of it. Fatty and unfair but enjoyable.

Really cool in the movie. But realise I've not many pictures taken with you guys. Probably I just dislike taking photos. Anyways, thanks friends. Your contributions awarded my mermories.Love you guys.

PS: I going have a eye job, double eye lids surgery at Gleneagles Hospital on this coming Monday. I've stay back home after 1 weeks more and back to recovery. Past few days My sister and I brought the sunglasses, amd cold eye compresser masks, prepared at home during the recovery.

shocked me.

2008-02-23T01:58:00.003+08:00

I got A BIT freak out when I went to work, seeing Helen with her left hand look like this.

Gosh!!!

The 'IN' thing for now, is Edison Chan scandalous issue, is a super hot topic in Hong Kong now. It's all over the net and still on everywhere, even the photos have been burned and duplicated into CDs and openly sold on the streets in Shenzhen深圳, China. The sex scandal photo CDs were selling like hot cakes and the demand for the CD was extremely high. Edison Chen, Gillian Chung and Cecilia Cheong photo series doesn’t stop there. Rumors are circulating that the Edison sex scandal photos have actually been leaked out before the photos appeared in the internet. Many people believe there are more porno and sex photos involving artistes such as Jolin Tsai, Maggie Q and even the Japanese actress Anne Suzuki which will be exposed if ongoing negotiations are not successful. This continuous revelation has exposed the sexual glut in the Chinese entertainment industry. But the shock element may wear off soon and the public may get tired of the never-ending sexual poses. Sexual titillation may turn into grandmother’s tales if the publisher is not careful. But the count for naked celebrities having sex with Edison may break the Guinness World record yet. Who knows?
One humor Hongkee uses their names to design the advertisement of sausage and abalone, namely Edison Sausage and Gillian Abalone. You should know why he chose sausage and abalone!

my Saint valentine.

2008-02-15T08:46:00.000+08:00

The day entry will go about him. Yeah, it’s him. Romantic 14 February the day itself, since I’m attached, I'd have a good Valentine's Day for once. I have been lonely heart for the previous V-Day; after all I’d celebrated with friends or classmates who also single awareness at the past, just like Friendship day. Perhaps I’m not so particularly on this special occasion.

This time is absolutely different. I was deadly delighted to be asked out on the day. You know that, I just told my parent I was coming home late with other better reasons. They shouldn’t know anything YET. Xoxo.

We went out before V-day too. Caught a movie at Vivo City and then sat around somewhere the Cable cars and beautiful night cool sea breeze. Shawn drove around the Mount Faber after him riding along the road for second thought. It really reminded my missed trip to Mount Faber on Christmas together with Joyce, as we found the interesting place on the net about Jewel Box. Unbelievable I went there, with him.

In fact, it was really offbeat when the day I was with my friends; scrolled along the river for my 1st time on day, compared to latter night I went with Shawn.

There was more crowded, with many couples around, of course (so-called the Valentine’s Day). Some came there for candle-lighted dinner along the riverside restaurants, and there were some couples sitting out over their sweetheart time, chatting or having their nice night scenes.

Many ladies clinched their flowers in their arms, either a stalk of roses with simple warppings, or wonderful decorate hand bouquet. I did admired what they have but i just dislike flowers. I just stared at some were badly hugging kissing all over in the public eye. I don’t know whether does it irritated me, or just being kinda deviate feeling uneasy. Or I’m too shy? I guess so.

OS: I didn’t bring any camera along on V-day so there is no picture taken there.

A finally food Day.

2008-02-10T08:23:00.000+08:00

Planning back the day and time to meet people out, I have called my fellow friends turn out for best leisure. I called many before the New Year but it turned ‘a few of them’. Yeah, only left two, Zheng Yi and Sin Yee, both were schoolmate. All right, be wholehearted, some were busy during New Year you know.

A new place we went around the mall, Leisure Park. I came out early where shops were all closed, went to Coffee Bean and frost myself at a corner with a cup of Berry’d treasure and a slice of strawberry cheese cake, waiting everyone coming.

Unbelievable. They finally came BUT we went to sushi restaurant.
In return, I just had ate contently and continually eating.. (Extracted fr: Sin Yee.)

Providing an abundance, especially of food.
Singing at K-box, and we walk around the place. A kinda of boredom?
Nah, I’m too full to think whatever we could. There was too crowded at the Kallang Bowling and ZhengYi had no kick on any ice-skating, and we couldn't find pool...

We knocked about the side of Kallang, Kallang Waterfront.

os: The next post will be about him. And stop bugging me.

Pipa' ist.

2008-02-07T12:13:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I’m back over there. I finally blog on something, at New Year’s Eve. Everyone enjoys Lunar New Year expect certainly my parent keep nagging giving more red packets. Money hurts… So I just decided to stay in my state and don’t got married early you see. Shawn might wonder my thoughts I guess. Ha-ha.

Back to my past years in secondary school day, around the time cny, I was very busy back for practices, preparing musical performance. I was the members of my school CCA Chinese Orchestras. I had been selected to my selected choice of instrument, Pipa. I got fall in love in my own club and stuck with passions. Really can’t complain myself absolutely concentrated. I met out many friends and seniors with special interests. No doubt, I’ve learned many, gained lots of stage experiences.

HEY. That's me! Grant right?

At Victoria Theatre. We were tidy,especially with 'Bannana suit', yellow blazer, I always thought it put us smart causal.

My batch and the seniors.

That's me. Leading the group. Whew!

This is my drawings, the masterpiece.

2001

2003. Further improvement?

Until now, I still can’t forget the life shuffled with music. Under my bed, a green shapely box, this kept my Pipa clean and dry in condition. What a sudden I got my mood to take out the instrument and spring. Just a pity I had thrown all my notes away and waste my time searching on net... it's so tiring.

A Chormatic tuner. This is to adjust the instrument's pitch and accuracy.

I reached home at this evening as everyone closed their shops early for the eve. I thought really indifferent when the time i was schooling.

What a dick. I was broken down at night. Painful sore throat and cold caught me in bed quite early (that I was not used to be early, rather a night owl.) after some drugs which given by Dad, made me gone sleepy hope I have apparently okay on New year.

Happy New Year 2008, people. 恭喜发财.

PS: If you have some more pictures of my school co, kindly formard to me. I would like to share this over here.

Can't control anymore!

2008-01-30T11:21:00.000+08:00

Gosh, this is unpleasantly having my long long winded days, in the retail therapy.
There is still 9 left reading my non-daily site, my dead, dead blog.
I’ve a very good reason for no blogging.
That’s right; I went ahead and did what I’ve always had. It’s work.
Can I say this is unnecessary? Fat hope.

People were eye-catching, doing their lots of shopping before the lunar New Year, and especially love last-minutes spending, from head to toe.
Well, you could see we were rushing grab among customers looking for best outfits in New Year. I thought I was tired.
Put half-division among my colleague the pairs of pant alterations, sitting down in the sewing room, with needles and threading.
Yet I ‘m still glad because New Year is coming…

I also want to shopping! After I got my bonus…

ps: I will blog more often after CNY.

我

2008-01-17T02:54:00.000+08:00

Xu jingya + Duck= 我

傻傻 + 笨笨= 我

没记忆 + 没专心= 我

爱发呆 + 爱哭包= 我

小气+ 不认输+ 小胆= 我

让人放不心 + 爱冒险 = 我

这样的我…

认识这样的你…

, jess miss'd yoiu.

JackASS.

2008-01-09T02:32:00.000+08:00

I have established my lst resolution. My slim pink PSP was in my hand. I promised myself to get myself one since past August. If you know me, I don't intent always go to arcade, neven since young. That reminded me the day I went out with friends and be the whole-day loser in the arcade. I just thought to have 'trainings' and funs.

Half of my salaries were all there gone. It’s cost me 400 bucks, plus the game itself. You know what.
I just don’t really like the game my brother chose for me since he was the one purchased the gaming for me. He was the kinda of knowing this much, yeah, only this he knows, no other that that.
He got me ‘Harvest Moon’, which I always have on mind that childish game where I saw my younger cousin playing. He said everyone is playing this since its famous, and especially among girls. I looked for a game, which called ‘Jackass’, I knew it from the internet where found many individual PSP games. I prefer Jackass was a bit kinda of psycho doing game which made me drop my jaw the first I saw, and it honesty goes nothing with my pervert thinking. It’s cool, indifferent. Yet it’s sold out! WTH.

I just keep dragging why I don’t like the game, and he ended up so disappointing my responds to his efforts. Oops sorry. I’m not mean to be, but I can’t pretend to like something that doesn’t favour me. I’m disappointed too. All right, I’ll try to get into the game fine’.

If you were me, which game you'll prefer?

Harvest Moon: Boy & Girl

or...

Jackass the Game?

P.S: I wouldn’t want to write a game review there. Don’t spoil their reputation.

os: Anyones knows how psp have connections into internet access? If you get hits, just leave a msg. Thanks you.

Follow <3.

2008-01-05T01:40:00.000+08:00

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.
You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.
Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.
You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.
Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

I love this picture. Air head in love.

My 2008 resolution.

2008-01-01T03:18:00.000+08:00

Giving all my times, thinking what is my resolution for the year 2008, at the 1st day of the year, update in the blog. Frankly, I have turned another better person since I came out to the society working. But I always ask for perfection.

Mostly importantly is my driving skill. I got my licence for almost 1 year at this coming February. My parking sucks. It’s troublesome to search somewhere is far and there is more spacious to park a car since there is no concern you’ll hit to any cars which, parked beside you. ‘Keep practicing’ is the key word. Hopefully I can just drive safety alone and Dad don't command.
I introduced a new character in my new chapter of life. Shawn Seah, My loving boyfriend. I’ll tell you more about him, in my next entire posts.
All about Money-Mind. Save more to buy whatever I want. PSP.
I have a bad memory. I kept promising people what to do for them but I ended up forgot. Alright, I promise you all I’ve to kick this bad habit.
A timetable is what I really need. My time management was in the mess. I couldn’t meet my folk friends and they started to turn-off by me.
Love Mummy & Daddy.

Ps. Only 5 resolutions for this year. Not too much, as my buddy ZhengYi will say I don’t establish all my revolutions in past previous years.

Aiming me, oyea.

2007-12-31T02:31:00.000+08:00

I was exhausted this week. You know everything need to celebrate into the whole evenings and people kept coming to the mall. But this never really showed the sale is tight. Sadder.

My new Haircut. I don't really cut much. Just decided to have a change, loose-perming ( It'll only last for 2 months.) will style my way. Guess you people better try to adapt my new look.

2008 New Year is coming close on its way. And I guess I want to come up into another new revolution. Post it after a few days, early Jan. Happy New Year, everyone. I'm Jess here.

your choice of TAXI.

2007-12-30T11:51:00.000+08:00

The cat is out of the bag. Taxi had announced its fare increase structure. Hell of confusing.
Can we see real competitive conditions in place; can the other taxi companies hold their fares?
I’m ready to pick n choose the colour of my taxi. Will the other operators give me the choice? No choice then takes Train. But the “Sardine Effect” in the train’s carriages will be worst then….
Getting to work is a hassle, what a way to start the day.
Some 17000 taxis have all ready to charge the new fare on early. Actions had been taken to adjust their meters before hand, “secretly”. All preparations were done. Just make the announcement and “kill”; oh, there is a 1-week notice. Will they always win?

SMRT, Yellow Tops, TransCab, Premier, SmartCabs, PrimeCabs please hold out for a period, maybe it will be just enough to alter the share of market players?

I only take taxis when it is really necessary, for example, when I am running late, or when I have a lot of things to carry. Otherwise, I take the bus or MRT. Commuters should start treating taxis as a 'last resort' mode of transportation, not a daily transportation. I drive too and I only take the car out when i need, or hop into a cab should the need arise.

I had been taking cab mostly to work, especially when my parent were not at Singapore. Not really because I’m lazy to take a public transport, wasting money; just wanna to see how the respond to the taxi drives, scrolling thought around all neighbourhoods look out for their customers. I finally asked one of the 40s year-old taxi driver who is will to share about the increase fare, whether does it helps on their income.

‘It’s worse! I can’t really have more customers. They may prefer public transport, it’s cheaper.’

‘But you get more fare pay, isn’t it better?’

‘Actually it’s only the matter of more customers with lower fares, or less customers with higher fares. I think it balances up or not, terrible when no one wants to call a cab.’ ‘We just have to listen to our master, the government.’

Well, this move will effectively weed out a whole group of commuters who take cabs on the 'fringe' of affordability example like students, middle-lower income people, and of course people who can't afford the increase.
And with the same supply of taxi, with a smaller demand now, since people are weeded out, the crunch will also be on cabbies as they realise that 'either we earn, or we don't earn; if we aren't going to fight for our passengers, we would not even earn, since there is such a limited and declining demand.' And people only need to take one cab to get to one place; there would be plenty of empty taxis plying the streets again.

Soon we would realise that since there is such a small pool of commuters as prices are high; cabbies would also drop out of the profession, as they aren't earning enough.

Like I said, we do not solve the issue of errant drivers, and in this action of increasing prices, causes effect that were caused by errant drivers. Why so much damage because of one group of people that are causing so many headaches.

You make the choice; will have the choice to pay for the convenience.
To respond to the fare increase, we have options.
As suggested; time management and habit change.

os: My parent came home. Finally.

Eve Christmas Eve.

2007-12-26T01:46:00.000+08:00

Infinite explanation my entire day, it’s so complex. A big fight with Jack brother, because of his ridiculous act, accuses the maid not doing her job even though she did, do everything over again. Badly maid started to dislike Jack, so both get quarrelling and shouting above, I went up to be the peace-maker. But I was almost a mute, can’t really stop them, I turned up to cry with my painful throats as even, hard-core instead, Poor thing. I called Dad overseas, with my forcing remained voice cry….
Sis Joyce went to down shocking after she heard shouting outside the bathroom and picked Dad on phone. We had no choice, decided to send the maid back to the agent. So I have no maid at home currently, have to make so sure everywhere is clean & clear. Mum and Dad will be back home and settle the matter.

Kept telling myself this is an enjoyable eve to celebrate, please don’t let the nasty matter so salt out my mood, hosting the family gathering dinner tonight. June Sis thought of the way to ex-changing gifts like most do in Christmas day. Therefore, I was spending around sometime, brought chocolate gift in the mall. It didn’t cost me as much; even I get enough presents for 9 persons.

Let's dig in mans.

Yeah, it's gifting time...

The most expensive gift in my Christmas. A Gucci Bag from Sis June.

The weirdest gift in my Chirstmas. From Jack Bro. He said I need badly for my sorely barefoot after the whole day work. How mean he was.

Really get overjoyed saw my friends came to visit me in my work. Oh, really thanks with the presents you all got me, I think I owe you a treat. It’s a promise.

Blessing myself, I still get the chance to see how the Christmas in busy crowded Orchard Town. Thanks you Shawn to ride me around there in the car, look all the amaze lightings decorations and straying people still encoring on closed streets, hoping the festive wonderful moment were there. I was so happy in spite of your bluffing to get ‘something’ from your friend. And I got home before 11pm , no one suspensed.

OS: So sad, I can't eat chocolate during Christmas, having terrible throats.

I CAN'T talk.

2007-12-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

This is so mad when you turned so sick. I lost my voice, once more time. It’s not good to happen now; especially I need talk much so badly, for customers, we communicated. OMG.
Joyce prepared the medicine downstairs. Later I’ll eat them later before I go to work.

I got cold war with my brother Jack. Whenever I told you this, should know we’re so serious, that we ever haven’t talked each other for 3 days, under one roof. Jack took his N level result, and how badly he done you could ever guess. He left only choices of ITE school at the west side Singapore (We really hate to travel far distance, and worse still, Simei ITE just right near-by our place.). He had been doing nothing pretty much, not even have a job he searched for a month thought. Yet only playing computer online game, so sucking. While, this made me love to compare him with my small cousin, who shares the same age as he, part-time working in my aunt’s wholesales, got his result and promoted to secondary 5.
Got worries over him, and most probably he hated me so much, because of this.

Isn’t good if I just close one of my eyes, and let’s everything run like his rotten thoughts?
Think twice. I’m his sister.

This is what I always love to do.

2007-12-21T13:36:00.000+08:00

HELP!!!

2007-12-18T01:10:00.001+08:00

I think I've suddenly lost my ability to blog!!!

I don't have anything interesting happening to me recently that doesn't involve the privacy of other people (which means I can't blog about it), and my life has settled into a flat boring plateau of comfort.

Browsing around the net… and the screen popped a something.

Alright, the moment I saw this in my computer, I knew it gonna be hard time for me.
That really reminded me my newly Norton Internet Security program which costs me $79.80, guess it should be useful.

Well, I ran the scan. And unexpected there is no threat or virus.
Oh fine. Went back to my surfing net explore, once clicking a new link or opening a site….
BACK TO SQUARE ONE.
I was exhausted searching any other anti-spyware program. Nah, not any of that.
But ran another scan at other program, there showed some problems.
It’s a virus. The whole morning I was just looking for recovery but nothing. What an turn-off, losing my mood to go online. Yet I still came across Kenny Sia's site. I thought he was a nice man but rather need to know his updates.

Currently working like hell like, which you ever know. My parent will be out of Singapore again the next day, reaching for Mum further treatment over there.

It’s so sweet-loving, Seriously yea.
Happy wondering and we’re something to share.

OS: Please people. If you know anything to remove this spyware or threat I’m handling badly, just leave me msg. Thanks.

Wa-Coax.

2007-12-11T02:29:00.000+08:00

This is the cooliest Chirstmas Tree I ever saw that is at my aunt's house,

BFF.

2007-12-09T01:47:00.000+08:00

Having an idea to chill out with my bestie Mary, I rather thought could make some special and interesting. Everyone is really hell busy having works done and stuffs on. So I have suggested celebrating her birthday at her home and yeah, of course, it’s something sweet you even hoping your best friend would do this for you.

Step 1: Call and make a date out.
As I told you previously, everyone seems have crushing schemes, so busy that you better make sure she was free on that day. If not, you were doing pointless job.

Step 2: A present to freak her out.
Present, present, present. There are 365 days people all around the world are buying good presents for someone they wanted to impress with. Cracking my mind, knowing what I gonna buy for Mary buddy.

Necklace? Please get something fresh. (Gosh, I know her for more 6 years then.)

Makeup set? Oh no, she’ll keep it until the years she might get into office lady facing their career.

A treat? Her Mum would be cooking for the special guest.

Walking around the shopping mall, having some budget money, I got nothing on my mind yet. But then, something had caught my eyes while shopping at window. I bought a heart- shaped thumb-drive for her, maybe she can use for project work at school.

Step 3: Don’t forget a cake.
All right, you know this is a birthday.

Softy Mango Moueese from Jack Place Eatiz.

Step 4: Make the right address.
I have almost lost the direction itself from the cab. Wondering she told, whether it’s Blk 295 or Blk 259.

Step 5: Be a happy pie of the day.
You know you would have so much fun inside there. Socialize everyone including other family members at home.

Mary and I. The little small girl is Mary's sister. Isn't she cute?

Don't you agree?

2007-12-05T01:22:00.001+08:00

Check out my e-mail, and I received something which made me nodded my head for many times.

the F word.

2007-12-04T03:28:00.000+08:00

Lately, I’ve been mixed socially of fussy. You know customers, been picky about your things you sell. Perhaps, it’s not the deal of the pricing. Look at the way people to judge every parts of a thing; particular about petty detail, certainly I always see hard to satisfy. And what happen likewise to me when I’m fussy?
When I skip dinner because none of the pots in kitchen gave a whiff of my favorite dishes, I’m fussy. I’ll tell Mum, ‘Nah, no thanks.’
When I scrunch my nose and wipe the tip of the toilet bowl with tissue, someone doesn’t put the toilet seat down.
When I satisfy any pants in the shop, especially I’m merchandiser, knowing their cuttings fit into me.

The funny thing is I’m not particularly picky. I don’t get anxious when a restaurant fails to serve up-to standard. I don’t pull a long face when someone gets late to meet up. That said, as I strive to be older and wiser, I have decided to keep myself in check.
When I drop a guy who’s potentially husband material from my list because our humour-sharing sessions were as off-killer as, a stand up, I’m fussy.

And one fateful conversation with Helen, my colleague, that she thought I refused to budge from my requirements if only pledging commitment guy who total package- kind, street-smart, self-assured man who shares my sense of humour. (Yeah. Obviously, she doesn’t know I’m dating with someone.) “It seems to be a small matter that he doesn’t have the same sense of humour as you do. Don’t you think you’re being too fussy?” she said.

As that point, it struck me that my so-called fussiness has been equated with sky-high expectations. I don’t need him to have looks and the liquidity of David Beckham. All I’m asking for is someone who has a similar set of qualities as mine.

You may able to identify with me at some point in your life, perhaps. We work hard to get that promotion, sign up for spa sessions and dancing classes, pay for our own Gucci, and think nothing of jet-setting half-way the world. We are living, to a large extent, by our own rules. We set those standard rules for ourselves, and our standards often equated with happiness. Of course, things don’t always go our way, and we learn to make the best of it while even don’t stop striving fulfill our standard in tosses.

Certainly, there are those who carry their own realistic expectations throughout their lives and never seen content. It’s all fine if they affect only themselves, but it’s not cool if they make life difficult for others.

If being fussy is about seeking your own happiness and making no apologies, then I shall not blame my customers.

An lovely Quote.

2007-11-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

I thought that I would share an inspiring quote with you all today rather than philosophize on something. Enjoy.

This is a quote out of my yearbook and it has an unknown author. You may have seen it somewhere before.

“For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the
good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For
beautiful hair, let a child run her fingers through it once a day. For poise,
walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than
things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never
throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one
at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you
have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.“

No excues

2007-11-26T03:09:00.001+08:00

Wow, it seems like no one has posted comments here in quite a while. I’ll try to keep this updated a bit more, but everyone’s busy this time of year with school, my friends most probably.
Anyway, today I’d like to talk about determinism. Basically, determinism is the belief that a higher power is responsible for our actions. This is a load of crap. We are all responsible for our actions and our actions only. By attributing (or blaming) everything to others, you are evading responsibility. I don’t mean to attack people who are shiftless at all, but determinism, a subset of “most” relies, is neither realistic nor correct. I think that we all would like to believe in things that are true. No one is responsible for you except for YOU, not God, not someone teaches you, not your parents, YOU. Self-reliance is man’s way to survive and a direct product of responsibility.
So no excuse, I’m telling myself expect times when was times I think I’m grown up to a big adult, not small anymore.

OS: For this Christmas, forget about the Jewel Box big event at Mount Faber. Simply have a small log cake at home before Mum and Dad will be backing home from Shenzhen, their second trip at 17th ~~November~~ December.

Lovebite.

2007-11-24T06:26:00.000+08:00

一直认为自己还在‘空窗期’的我，不自不觉地喜欢上他。

坦白说，我好像有了三个恋爱经验哦。之前那两个恋爱，好像都只是顺手而以。
你因该不相信吧？

没错，昨天我和他见面了。我们分手了。好悲哦，好悲哦。
从来不知道我有和别人交往的父母，我真的不知要如何跟他们说。在读书的时候，并没有谈恋爱，只是懂得测验要满分。再说，妈妈的病情不稳定，姐姐最近被前夫扰乱，不想增加母亲的压力。变得我好没有勇气哟，连好朋友我都不敢告诉他们。所以只好隐瞒大家。

认识他好像有两个月，和他的时间并不多。因为人手不够，要接近佳节，我几乎天天做工，不要说他，我连好姐妹都难遇约出来。所以我们在一起好像偷偷摸摸的，有些认真，有些暧昧，就是不公开先。但是，他就不认同了。

我越来越没有时间倍他，他说越来越没有我的存在，慢慢会淡了，褪色。
只记得他的体贴，他的关心，他的温柔。我好为难哦。我怎么睡得着？说不遗憾是骗人的。

说真的，昨天刚刚见到他的时候，我有些说不出的感动。
放弃跟你在一起，我害怕这只是一个美丽的回忆，而错过的爱情。

You Are An Understanding Girlfriend!

You care about your guy, so much that you tend to put him first
And while this makes your relationship smooth, sometimes you let big things slide
Still be your understanding self, but if something really bothers you - let your guy know
He'll still want you, even if you occasionally disagree

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

OS: I've been looking back, will you still be around?

Bad emotion and made it into half.

2007-11-21T03:08:00.000+08:00

Wondering who the one sings 'Bleeding Love', with her attractive local voice. She was Leona Lewis, who won the UK And U.S TV competition, X Factor. I love her amazing songs she sang, and let's me feel its songs. She made the crowd crapped for her. Wonderful lady.

If you've not know her yet, wanna to see her performances in the show. Just click and see. Sure, you would like it.

I dislike the raining that fell apart. It fell apart when you're far away
from me. You're so far.. so far... from me.

Foods, foods, foods, foods and still FOODS.

2007-11-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

Never thought having the family dinner today, yeah I mean only today. Sister called me over and I walked across one street, joining them for buffet dinner inside the hotel. I couldn’t think that I have eaten a bowl of fish noodles soup in 1 hour ago. And then, I ended up in a restaurant.

Geeks. June started playing her camera with me, ah, without my permission. Look at her. But one thing I know. She don't know how to use the function. Hahah.

June and her boyfriend, Roy.

It's not a bad day for me, but it's a 'full' day indeed. WTH.

The foods was delicious but they killed me, stomachache.

PS: People, I gonna close my chatter box and really really wanting to have some comments. I needs your 'Big Mouths'.

At airpot day.

2007-11-16T12:19:00.000+08:00

After a few hours, i gotta met sister, June. She met me at the mrt station before I left my workplace. What a damn, I turned down to be late. And you know her, she started to chase me from the way to the station. Like Hell.

Mrt station is where a place we treat as a playgound, only ours.

Look at her. She know what she was playing.

She flimed me in her camera. Walau, she made like a ghost indeed. Faded ghost and Halfed-body. Just practice and capture more picture, Jane Jane.

The train stopped at the new airport, Terminal 3 . Everything there is new, very new. And Jane started to flim me again. Agrh.

We went for the skytrain to Terminal 1. This is really my 1st time in the skytrain. Well, it is clear and spacey, which is convenient for passagers with them big luge luggages. And we could only sat at a corner, travelling a very short distance, arrived at another terminal.

Looking around, we 'searched' June and her boyfriend at the other side of the airport. We went for dinner. (Oops, sorry no photo at this moment. I was busy handling my fork and knife. Excuse me.)

Back to the basement then, it's the arrival hall. The time was around, Joyce and Jack was there.

Joyce. Waiting in her temper.

Jack. His new hairstyle was to have an warm welcome to Mum and Dad.

The last moment.

2007-11-15T11:42:00.000+08:00

Lying at home, just waiting a few hours before Mum and Dad will be back. Brother and I make today so-called a ‘D-day’. D is stand for Defense. We really got cold feet while Mum and Dad start to scold and roar. Aww. Checking up and down everything it’s all right, guess there’ll be no scolding from parent themselves. Yeah, it reminds me asking Aunt to wash my car outside later.

Heys that's my very first trophy (and i guess it should the last ones too), while Jack found it and was cleaning up my space at my room.

Honestly, Jack do better job than me in the house. Mum kept complaining me about my messy bedroom, and things were everwhere over the place. Rather different, Jack keeps his things in orderly, whatever stuffs he put it inside a box and then cabin. Just except, his room smells unpleasant some kinda where he started to cough and stayed inside in long hours air-con room. And yeas, he cooked for us a few days ago. Google.

OS: I’m cold sick, the weather happen so ridiculous.

I'm stay good, daddy & mummy.

2007-11-14T14:03:00.000+08:00

It’s a long day, long weeks never before just waiting for Mummy and Daddy to be back from the airport. They’ll be back at this Thursday. Jack and I have an eye on the house, checking everything it’s okay, before Mummy and Daddy got shocking what have we done past few weeks when they’re not at home. Ha-ha. Don’t worry, just only the back door locker was spoiled and we called someone to change it yesterday. I guess Mummy will surely know it as the locker as obviously different from the original, Rah.

Joyce and I buy breakfast for every mornings. I couldn’t wonder we had walking down all the streets from house, with our home clothes dressing; so called Pajamas, and without putting ‘eyes brow’ makeups. That’s horrible if you see anyone NO Eyebrows outside. We noticed it until one of my customers was on the same streets, going for work and she recognized us and shock. But we don’t bother because since we have already no reputation there… SO WE DON’T CARE ANYWAY. Well, I have my Burger king Breakfast.

Back home, I dove Joyce around in despite of not having her car license. Joyce was instructing me my direction of steeling wheel indeed. I dove to the HDB flat car park to practice my parking, and around the areas which I have not even driven there before, like Tampine site. I have to do before Daddy come home because’ you know he wouldn’t want me drive so far. And I dove in the early morning for buying breakfasts home.

The days were really bad especially people were walking around and, rather not purchasing. You know Daddy kept asking what happen to the business. I can’t defined him anything yet I promised him the next time sure be better. Whatever, I hope I’m not consoling myself too. Guess Daddy should be somewhere desperate having big problems mindset, to save all of us out there. He called me past two days out of spite and I thought something was wrong.
He was annoyed and in irritated tone.
‘How were the shops?’
‘It’s not good at all.’
‘It should be better especially this season having more holidays. Have to be stressed ourselves, don't we? ’
‘Does anyone come in for interviews?’
‘Yes, there are. But mostly came in were students, they’ll work for us in short-term only, plus higher pay they’re asking.’
‘You better tell Joyce to hire a girl faster and stable working. We've not much time. Mum’s medical expenses were quite tough down there.’
‘Oh, I’m trying too.’
‘Take care, and don’t drive alone.’

Okay, please buy!

Just for fun.

2007-11-09T11:41:00.000+08:00

Joyce ong. My godsister.

Helen Wong. My Colleage Staff

Jack Koh- My tickle Brother.

Shawn Xie. My friend.

Mei Yun. My Missing Buddy.

Goddy, don't forget me. Jess Koh.

Os: Hey, I do look abit like Mary Hah? Oh my god.

C'om on, let's get going to DRAW.

2007-11-07T12:32:00.000+08:00

Phew. I've brought resource books quite sometimes and guess i haven't really seriously looking though it. Gosh, yeah i'm lazy. Honestly, it have a long time i haven't been drawing never since only the foregoing. Hope I'll got nothing to go extremely far behind the fashion sense. Of course, plus not failing to do so-and-so. THER!

Well, Mum and Dad are coming home at 15th Nov. oh yeah.

tin-shape you're giving away, not the cookies.

2007-11-05T03:11:00.000+08:00

Really dead meat after the whole entire day woke up damn early days and working like hell. This is when I realized how much I or we relied on our parents to do for us. Yesterday, it was the 7 annual Parkway Crazy Sales as every shop should have their own promotions or even greater discounts. I could see a lot of signboards were hanging over the place, with percents. Its horrible crowds were everywhere inside the mall, you've even waited for a few minutes for your turn to the toilet. Of course, we did have some offers in the shop. But I wondered it’s doesn’t act on much… don’t know why. But I know that day is ‘Crazy’.

Dad called us every night. I ‘m daring to say I know what he’s doing do over there. Just guessing the phone bills were freaking high after this month to be over. Mum is currently at the ICU, maybe will be out of the room tomorrow. And after then, all she needs is treatments. Actually I have no idea how it’ll work, but just hope this might be a miracle. If you want to know more about it, I’ve the link, you can check it out.

It's very bored at night especially when you're clicking everywhere on the internet, while everyone is sleeping no one online. I randomly searched on famous Singapore bloggers.
There are two bloggers I'm intented. Yeah, having my ass on so long sitting down, reading some others work. Don't slap me please.

Dawn Yang, latest blogging craze babe who made herself uber hot sexy through plastic surgery, she’s been the focus of a firestorm on Asian blogs. Personally, I don’t see what’s wrong with surgery. I think it’s pretty hot that she got noticed via her blog (and looks, obviously) even though she’s a semi-socialite in Singapore and all that. I read her site from time to time, she seems pretty nice and non-malicious, plus the scholarship to the US should be some kind of indication that there’s a brain working somewhere.

Xiaxue, her blog attracts a bit less than 20,000 readers every day with her take on current events and her life. She blogs about various topics, ranging from methods of measuring penises to dumb starfish and MRT irritants. She is also known to be rather defensive towards criticism. Xiaxue currently has her own ongoing web-based show called "Xiaxue's Guide To Life" which is running on the web-based TV network clicknetwork.tv. I read it and thought she's somekinda other side of viewers, likewise.

Thanks for your cookies, Shawn.
And waiting another-another day.

Love letters, making out in raining days, 3am.

2007-10-31T02:28:00.000+08:00

“Just incase you’re still wondering, you’re everything of sunset…
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day...”
Sweetly noticed another side of your bed, someone you're thinking to miss so much at the end of the day.
Lonely was no more.
No heaven's [not] a place that you go when you die, not even apart.
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive. So live for the moment and take this advice live by every word Love's completely real so forget anything that you've heard and live for the moment now.

Can’t really predict the future, nevertheless it might be good or bad. You may think I’m naïve. But I know it should be a paradise.

P.S: Please forward to Amanda too.

Be good.

2007-10-29T07:09:00.000+08:00

Whew. Woke up early the morning, fixed up the alarm in the house and went out to buy breakfast with Joyce later on. Freaking tired of all of us, couldn’t guess we’ll carry this how long. Yawn again.
Dad usually called home at night; check everyone to be at home, and know the happenings for our daily in and out. Ha-ha, you know he’ll do this since he was always so tended. Mum was doing their check-ups over there before proceed any treatments at the local hospital at Guang Zhou. It does probably take them around one month to finalize everything over there, as Dad told me last night on the overseas call. We jaded. But I miss them.

Helen’s currently staying over my place, because’ of her rent declined and in the sudden. Really thought it was frustrated her roommates just left and all settles all alone to her. I think my house will be more swarming her staying since Mum and Dad not around. This reminds me Louis thought of asking me to invite him over to slack at my place since my parents are not around. But I’m not outrageous to that, neighbors.

Oh yeh, I don’t forget Mary.
IMISSEVERYONE.
And now is 7.00am. Good morning.

Back to work.

2007-10-17T03:00:00.000+08:00

Just brought two Fashion source technical books from bookstore today.
Having resources, I think I might have things to do after the night, expect surfing net like now I’m doing... blog.
Yeah, I have to get back to draw something and post it all on the Deviantart.

To do list.

My drawings and pencils on the table task. Draw and more.
Do my tidying in my room, which Mum keeps dragging me about the cleanness. (I wanted to do so every time, but failed in the end.)
Feel Shawnee.
Be a responsible housekeeper. Mum and Dad went out for a long weeks. I guess they really felt unsecured when they are doing hard to remind their daughter how to take care of the house.
Go to K-box session once with Joyce this week. If not, we have to wait until Mum and Dad to be back next month.
Do more SMS to friends.
Ask for Free Hugs.
Control my spending.
I’m on diet, oh boy
Be lucky, especially on work.

what a sudden"?

2007-10-15T03:15:00.000+08:00

What I really never thought about it. Mum and Dad planned to China and went to there local hospital for further treatment. Guess they have made this decision just today as they have contacted the management. Mother told me going leave this coming weekend; this is what we don’t really expect. I’m just thinking that both my parents have not leave from home before, go to overseas, feeling unsecured away. Wondering how I can be the housekeeper for a long month, can’t really imagine.

Got really bad in work. I can’t reach my target hit last month and yet this month worse. Customers just won’t want to listen to me; they got their own spell on again, ‘SAVE THE MONEY’. With no better reason, they told you them come to browsing around with no cash and credit around. If you do this to me too, I just cut you into pieces.

And yeah, no wrong, I got hooked up with someone. I think this is really new, so I keep secretly till’ I find it’s the right time to let everyone know.

Supporting this.

2007-10-07T01:35:00.000+08:00

People feel upset and down in some moment.
A hugs is all what we needs.
HUG ME. It's FREE.

No way, no gain?

2007-10-03T02:31:00.000+08:00

I don’t know. Stressful life just came apart; especially you thought you shouldn’t have any. Not good business, we are keeping asking so many whys and hows. Dad was trying to telling me the loss we got from the right start. I felt the import of his words. Of course, certainly thinking about Mum’s heavy medical expenses.

My pay I got by today. And yeah, half of the amount has given to Mum and Dad. It includes the debt for my notebook last month. Argh.

I turned to grey.
My passion has gone away.

Not rated, so bad.

2007-09-26T01:54:00.000+08:00

Got excited never than before. I was almost delayed to meet Mary and Amanda out today because of my customer came for new item. Fortunately, I jumped into a cab and the uncle driver got his speed well. Shopping around the huge mall, tried to find something could catch our eyes. The Nikes staffs just wanted to show me the banded watches which I thought one of them pretty attractive, but Mary stood out the price there, especially I’m currently on loan.

Sing. Singing and Sang.
My heart goes Shalala. We kept ourselves in the cell with music, have eaten the buffet sets until I felt so weighed, and ran after washroom in the 1st round. Yeah, I know Mary would like to have more than this. She could even have more bites and tastes yet I did stop myself. We went to buy a gift for Karen while her birthday is coming. And so, you have to guess what it is… as it supposed to be a surprise, you know.

Amanda shared some back-fence talks that I never heard off in the school. Some interesting crushes in the teenage times are always so earful and complicated.
Love is special and unspeakable.
You should agree that with me right?
Can’t really imagine how we could gossip all the way we walked to the train? Because we’re girls? Just only that we don’t really bitch or… apparently not the time yet. Hha.

I’m wondering why doesn’t seem like a mooncakes festive today for me?

Forward to.

2007-09-25T02:29:00.000+08:00

Agrh, got to pack up my things in the drawers and so. Mum complained about me. You know lazy. haha. Peaceful time when my brother and I don't fight for computer at home since the day i got my notebook. but I couldn't guess Jack doing more on games, not N level.

It's interesting when someone realised you need her copyrights somewhere. So know how good you are? Just in my bosom then. Well, it's not too late you just saw this before i was trying get a new one, hope you don't mind. Of course, meet with you once again. :)

os: yeah, my off-day is TOMORROW.

ps: hey,my drawings. Can link and see.

wth.

2007-09-22T09:21:00.000+08:00

Wah. Pretty lazy at the week, especially I was downcast doing the firm's CPF thin'g online, which I logged in the first time. Certainly troublesome especially I got retarded on the net.

I got flame with someone,
and no gay is around this time. :)

went out of the wrong side of the bed.

2007-09-17T03:14:00.000+08:00

Not much peaceful life I have. Helen went leave for the last 5 days and I would be all alone in retail and what I called this sole-working. Cleaning up, ironing the latest dressing, serving big fussy customers, no wrong cashing payments, I have to take big tasks responsible in all these. What a shit, I thought I’m doing this well, too much confidence.

It was more delighted, while Christine and Serene, my ex-schoolmates, found me in the corner of the big shopping mall. They was wondering what happened to my schooling days, guessing I should have good records in school indeed. Obviously, I had just stopped it half-way though. Oh.

We need people working. It’s time to hire someone in the shop. Jane got big problem with Mum again, and she was mentally tough, asking to take out the job. This is I have expected before that Jane would jumble up family and business into one matter. She just could not figure out, and needed to be winded down.

This is a pathetic period seeing that everyone asking you to chill out somewhere else, especially when you have not enough cash to spend. Oh friends, if you’re trying to date me out in the meantime, I shall tell you earlier if somebody was going to pick up the tab. And I really don’t mind to be treated, yah.

os: I thought what a big surprise you gonna bring me, Mary. Since the day we chatted overnight long hours, you have mentioned it doubtful and I have no idea absolutely. The surprise was big’ enough to share. A letter (like love letter which I dream to have one actually). Dad giggled while he saw that letter that I was reading though. Perhaps, he said we’re the ancient people who are still using on papers and sent it by big pigeons, even thought we’re living at Simei and Tampines.

Don't you ever ask the understanding of this?

2007-09-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

I understand why.

what I need now.

2007-09-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

Nah. Totally broke. Penniless just killed lot of people. 'Ghost' used to tell me life is getting bored and nothing. Well, people are greedy. And we need money to cover our daily expenditure. Yet money can’t really buy happiness or vice versa. We always complain no enough and life turns out meaningless.

I just called off Mary day out. Really sorry that I don’t think I could still spend enough even bought a router and a notebook which costs me 3000 bucks and more. That recent day, downloaded many programmers and updated my stuffs into my new baby…

Rah, I still owed Dad 500 bucks as he paid only half of the deposit. My next pay will settled the debt then.

jesslicious.

going to heaven yet almost headed straight to hell.

2007-09-05T03:01:00.000+08:00

You Are 60% Good

You are a fairly good person. You strive to live a moral life whenever possible.
You are usually kind, generous, and loyal. However, you do have a dark side that even you may not see.
When it comes down to ethical decisions, you tend to take the path of least resistance.
So you may end up lying, cheating, or engaging in other bad behavior... because it's just easier to do so.

You are also probably: Conflicted and confused about the current course of your life

Right now you are on track to being: A slightly crooked politician

To be a better person: Break one bad habit - whether it's telling white lies or spending too much money.

How Good Are You?

os: No comment.

ps: Argh, may not be completely emo, I have a sensitive, deep, troubled soul. And I don't know why.

Cycling or beaching at Eastcoast while our next free time? Mary & Co.

scolding up the F-words.

2007-09-03T13:34:00.000+08:00

What the? Just right today is my brother N level Listening comprehension. And how relaxation act he showed made me so irritated. He had himself killers’ series in the net as usual late and I caught him doing this too much. And we quarrelled and closed my gate... How useless when he asked me for a 2B pencil before examination started. Not only talking about his entry proof, he was almost there to fail in the first place.

Checking out the WP online for Joyce’s renewal of Work Permit, I thought it should be a new thing for me. Don’t really understand why the government have changed their policies in times. As a resident in the house, I have to follow up from the starting, get updated.
I just got my Singpass.

slow.

2007-09-01T02:51:00.000+08:00

Early day I woke up for our month-end stock checking, I almost roared for the whole morning. Reminded me I just slept four hours late night.

Mary and Xue went over my workplace today. Brought them for dinner at Fish & Co, and Mary was really not favoured by the black pepper stingray she ordered. And I had to finish for her even I just had just eaten a hot fugue cake, since I was gonna pay for bill. Don’t waste my money, not the food either.

Thanks for all the envelopes on the best latest notebook you have collected for me in the IT shows, Mary. I think I should press my calculator hard enough and considered ‘All in ONE’ choice notebook will suitable for my needs.